my relationship to the internet has been one of apprehension and fear.


At the age of thirteen (in 2013) I joined Instagram. I remember me and my friend Stephen asking our father’s permission to make profiles at the same time. This was my first ever social media account. My earliest memory at the time I had made the account is of a basketball player who had sustained a shocking injury on live television. Images of his tibia protruding from his leg with Instagram filters over top were plastered all over my feed by classmates of mine, with the hashtag #PrayForKevinWare. Kevin Ware fully recovered and continued a very successful professional basketball career for many years.


Me and my middle school friends would listen to music on a site called Grooveshark. We had usernames like Metalhead656 or JayIsUndead. We listened to and shared with one another artists like Tokio Hotel, Attack Attack, Black Veil Brides, Asking Alexandria, and System Of A Down. In the summer of 2015, the site closed down suddenly due to massive copyright infringement. We lost our music libraries and the founder of Grooveshark, Josh Greenberg, was found dead in his bed by his girlfriend immediately after its closure. There was no sign of foul play or suicide, and his autopsy failed to determine a cause of death. He was 28 years old. We moved onto Spotify.



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2014
Death Note
Blood Lad
Sword Art Online
Sword Art Online II
Attack on Titan
Soul Eater
Terror In Resonance
High School DxD
High School DxD New
High School Of The Dead
The Future Diary
Another
Danganronpa: The Animation
Eden of the East
Eden of the East Movie I
Elfen Lied

2015
Dusk Maiden of Amnesia
Deadman Wonderland
Code Geass R1
Code Geass R2
The Melancholy of Haruhi Suzumiya
Toradora
Date A Live
The Disappearance of Haruhi Suzumiya
The Pet Girl of Sakurasau
Kokoro Connect
Heavens Lost Property
Blood-C
Blood-c The Lost Dark
Mysterious Girlfriend X
Tokyo Ghoul
Tokyo Ghoul Root A
Plastic Memories
Golden Boy
High School DxD BorN
Haganai
Haganai Next
Love, Chunibyo, and other Delusions
Mayo Chiki
Love, Chunibyo: Heartthrob
The Familiar of Zero
The Familiar of Zero Season 2
The Disappearance of Yuki Nagato
Beyond The Boundary
My Little Monster
The World God Only Knows
Noragami
Black Lagoon
Neon Genesis Evangelion
The End of Evangelion
Ghost in the Shell
Prison School
Beck
Nana
Saekano
B Gata H Kei
Monster Musume
Gyo
Akame Ga Kill
Dan Machi
Shakugan No Shana

2016
Evangelion 2.0
Evangelion 3.0
Bakuman
Kill La Kill
Yamada-run and the Seven Witches
Kaze no Stigma
Nisekoi
Ano Natsu de Matteru
True Tears
Sankarea
Glaasslip
Durarara!!
Durararaa!!X2
K
The Seven Deadly Sins
Seraph of The End
Seraph of The End S2
Kiznaiver
The Hentai Prince and the Stony Cat
Kotoura-san
Fruits Basket
Ao Haru Ride
Re:Zero
Bokura wa Minna Kawaisou
Yona of the Dawn
Snow White with the Red Hair
Snow White with the Red Hair 2nd Season
Say “I Love You”

2017
Lovely Complex
Cowboy Bebop
His and Her Circumstances
Kaichou wa Maid-sama!
Ajin
Ajin Season 2
Bokura Ga Ita
Special A
Nogizaka Haruka No Himitsu
Nogizaka Haruka No Himitsu: Finale
Baka to Test to Shoukanjuu
Kuzu No Honkai
Claymore
Golden Time
Grisaia no Kajitsu
Kino’s Journey
Paradise Kiss
Phantom: Requiem for the Phantom


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During this period, I also became hungry for knowledge of the internet's cultural history, and would obsessively browse the hundreds of thousands of entries on the website Know Your Meme. I lived vicariously through this website, learning about the strange histories of 4chan, Reddit, YouTube, ebaumsworld, YTMND, and became enthralled with creepypasta's and ARG's (Alternate Reality Game). All of these strange references, inside jokes, and esoteric, vauge pieces of contextless images were something I was completely enamoured by (and still am).

Below is a short list of creepypasta-adjacent images that have had a deep impact on my psyche and aesthetic values.


I created a Twitter account in 2017 during my high school Social Studies class. Our teacher required the whole class to make profiles so we could “keep up on current events”, which in hidsight is kind of fucking insane. My friend Jayson joked that his username would be @psychokillerdrugdealer. I do not remember what my initial username was. It was a place where I witnessed a lot of ugly and confusing things. It was also a place where I could follow a bunch of inspiring artists, musicians, and content creators. I liked treating tweeting like an expulsion of the dumbest and most immediate thought in my brain; the dumber and more abstract, the more fun. It is also a place where I witnessed lots and lots of brutalization, death, pornography, psychosis, and fascism. I stopped using it a month ago, for it became a corpse.


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In 2019 I started an alternative Instagram account that my friends did not know about as an art outlet. I came up with the username @indoorzzz, based on my experience as a self-imposed shut-in. The page was meant to be a secret platform where I could post my really gay artwork. I started tracing shirtless selfies of guys that were posted to the site, and made these weird illustrated collages. During the pandemic I got really serious about making artwork, and started posting pretty regularly. I still post on this account to this day, though I no longer consider myself a shut-in.